These fragments I have shored against my ruins

Snap, crackle, pop...my body!

2008-07-23T04:26:13Z

So I had my first physical therapy appointment today, and it turns out a lot of the reason I have so much neck and back pain is because I'm double jointed, (officially called hypermobility) not just in my shoulders, but in most joints in my body. Enough so that the therapist was a bit creeped out while doing the exam. Apparently this means that my joints are naturally very weak or something. So there you go callmegim, there's the reason why all the war on my back couldn't work or wouldn't hold...I guess you can't fight bone structure. This also explains, for those of you that know me IRL, why I have the noisiest, most popping-est skeletal structure in history and am forever stretching something. Now, to learn new exercises to make it hurt less!!

I looove this band!!

2008-07-21T05:57:37Z

Please, forgive me for having a teenage girl-esque moment of excitement, but...

Oh my god, so exciting!!

Very random stuff.

2008-06-25T04:36:10Z

One sentence.

Fresh strawberries, ripe from the field, dipped in Lindt chocolate and chilled.

Holy shit.

Next time I'm adding rose water.

Also, is the mosquito population reaching plague levels anywhere besides Madison, WI? I am normally a nonviolent person, but these days I really find myself indulging in fantasies of trapping them all and setting them on fire. Seriously. I walk in a cloud of them. A stinging, itching, bloody cloud. First the plague of snow, then the plague of rain, now Wisconsinite locusts. I feel like I should spread the blood of something slain on my lintels.

And, finally: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=crIJvcWkVcs

*waves to all*

Just an FYI for the few people who read this thing,

2008-04-08T20:23:02Z

but I'm pretty much offline indefinitely as my computer blew up and I can't afford to replace it at the moment. At least not with something decent. I'm planning to save up for a nice shiny new one (hoorays!). Until then, it's pen and paper for the writing and telephone for keeping in touch.

Shanti, all.

You can tell it's spring...

2008-03-23T22:43:50Z

...by the size of the snowflakes. A month ago they were hard and pelt-ey; now they're soft and the size of quarters. And accumulating merrily.

*sigh* Fuck you, Wisconsin. Seriously. Fuck you. Eee-nough already. I do not live in Alaska for a reason.

I laughed out loud for several minutes.

2008-03-22T19:57:44Z

The new banner of "I Blame the Patriarchy" is fucking hilarious.

I want to scream.

2008-01-14T22:12:42Z

My immediate coworker plays nothing but pop music in the school of poorly executed cheerleading. You know the kind...overly repeated inanities, no melody to speak of, and the same rhythm in every damn song. If the word can even be employed.

Help....please, please help.... *sob*!

Rest in peace, sweetheart

2008-01-02T06:18:21Z

Dear Gavin,

You were my little best friend for ten years. We all miss you horribly. I'm glad you're not sick any longer, but this is still awful. At least you're not in pain any more. You were the best...you really were. You were really unique. You loved completely and unconditionally, and you brought healing to so many people just by being there. You will never be forgotten. Blessings on your new journey.

All the love in the world,

dairon920

Gavin, August ? 1997-Dec. 26, 2007

Very silly George Lucas humor...

2007-12-29T19:36:26Z

So, a little long, but full of hilarious...

The only thing that could have made those movies even worse.

dairon920 @ 2007-12-19T19:05:00

2007-12-20T01:07:17Z

HOORAY I HAVE A CAT SITTER. (and she is really nice)

WOOT HOLIDAY PLANS ARE BACK ON!!

...the fuck??

2007-12-06T00:20:30Z

So I came home today to a voicemail from a random guy...who's looking for a Mistress Sappho, who I think from the rest of the message is a dom.

Not only is that weird, but a vm...from a guy...looking for Mistress Sappho?? Hello dude, I think she gave you the wrong number b/c she's not interested in you...um, the name really could have tipped you off on that one...

*sigh* Life is weird. I am so confused.

Wow. I bothered to do something domestic.

2007-08-19T23:53:25Z

I wish I could invite you all over right now. I just made a giant pot of black bean chili, and a huge pan of lasagna.

Please do not ask what brought on this sudden fit of domesticity, I have no idea myself. I do know, however, that this means I will be eating chili and lasagna for at least a week. :-P

Random, I know, but I'm domestic infrequently enough that I thought it was newsworthy.

dairon920 @ 2007-08-07T22:50:00

2007-08-08T03:53:33Z

So, guess who's going to be in Chicago in the near future?

Within Temptation! Squeee!!!

Guess who else?

Squeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

Road trips!! Road trips!!!

Huh. Not nearly as bad as I thought it would be.

2007-08-07T04:05:06Z

So, I had another tooth ripped out today, and after having the wisdom teeth pulled a few months ago and spending over a week in awful pain, kind of figured that this would be a lesser version of the same. Weirdly, it barely hurts at all. I mean, it feels like I have a little cut in my mouth, but that's it. I am pleasantly surprised. Also, it's kinda surreal to sit and watch people pull bloody bits of bone out of your mouth with what looks like medieval torture devices ( I swear, the guy basically used an awl, a tiny crowbar, and a very hardcore needle-nose pliers), especially when it really doesn't hurt at the time. But hey, no more headaches is a good thing. :-)

dairon920 @ 2007-07-21T20:13:00

2007-07-22T01:16:32Z

HOLY CRAP I finally got my computer back. I missed her muchly.

*hugs laptop*

For those of you who don't read feminist_rage,

2007-06-28T00:42:48Z

http://easypersiflage.com/blameforum/index.php?topic=472.0

I have no damn words. The only good thing is that one poster found the appropriate place to send letters of protest.

Go forth and protest, my friends. Go forth and protest.

--breathing--

2007-05-18T03:33:58Z

Okay. So. Now, I called the vet *back* in order to try to get her to reexplain everything, as I was sort of horrified when I called her two days ago and only got about every third word. She says, yeah, never mind, my bad, I took a closer look at his chart and really, while this is a fair jump from his last visit, it doesn't seem to be too far out of the fluctuation he's been living with for a year now. So, never mind the stuff I said about him dying soon, I really just didn't read his chart very closely.

Okay. 1. I am very happy. 2. Having now done more research on his malady, I have a much stronger grip on the reality that he does, in fact, have a terminal illness, even if he isn't as bad as you initially thought. But, 3. THE FUCK????? DO YOU OFTEN PROCLAIM IMMINENT DEATH FOR YOUR PATIENTS WITHOUT DOING YOUR DAMN JOB FIRST, FOR INSTANCE, THE JOB OF READING THE CHART AND DRAWING REASONABLE CONCLUSIONS FROM **ALL** OF YOUR DATA????

*ahem!* Yes, well, thanks for plugging your ears and letting me scream. I've spent the last few days bawling over what a horrible mom I am for not having noticed his tooth decay earlier, how I should have somehow found money to take him to the vet all the time even though he 1. wasn't sick, and 2. I didn't take myself to the doctor when I was, etc. etc. I am, of course, ecstatic that he is healthier than I thought. And very sobered and sad at the still-imminent reality that he is living with *two* conditions that may be killing him. But, yes, very very happy that he has some time left. However, not looking forward to shoving antibiotics down his throat this evening. :-P (He has a little infection to boot.) Plus, now that he's not dying imminently, he gets to have an echocardiogram! What fun! Hey, Gav? Come on, cheer with me! You'll love sitting in the vet's office for an hour while a stranger pokes you, it'll be great!!

*sigh*

I am damn emotionally exhausted.

dairon920 @ 2007-05-16T19:53:00

2007-05-17T01:04:55Z

I just heard back from the vet on Gavin's recent tests, and unless they somehow caught him on a "really high day," despite the fact that he is acting pretty happy (albeit very mellow), it seems that he is failing with a certain rapidity. I offer this information now because some of you out there also have some affection for him, so I thought you would want to know. If you would like to see him again (and I do not assume that seeing a cat has a high priority on anyone's list necessarily, only I am that crazy), you may want to try to fairly soon. He is acting just fine still, but the kidney failure is now causing anemia, and the heart murmur is bad too. All his labs are up significantly, and he is...well, very sleepy all the time. The vet called this the "final stages" of renal failure. So...yeah. I guess I just haven't wanted to think about the fact that my best little friend has a terminal illness.

Also, please don't condole with me yet, okay? It's just too morbid while he's hanging out here snoring happily. Let's just say that I am enjoying as much time with him as I possibly can right now.

Fucking Ow!!!

2007-05-13T04:50:09Z

So, whoever says that you will be healed up from having your wisdom teeth out in two days' time is a horrible pathological liar.

God, I kinda want to die right now. Also, trying to go to work three days after a procedure is a *very bad* idea. Once the dizzy kicked in on top of the exhaustion and pain, I figured, you know, maybe the four ppl that have come up to me and told me I look like death have a point.

Well, here's to hoping things are okay by Monday. At least my boss was very nice about it. :-D

*Addendum*, as I didn't get to post this until a day later: I feel like one of the primary side-effects of having one's wisdom teeth out should *not* be sleeping for sixteen hours a day. I mean, sleep is nice, but I'm tired of being awake for only a couple of hours at a time.

dairon920 @ 2007-04-14T20:58:00

2007-04-15T02:01:29Z

This puts so much that I try to explain to people into such a compact form. Had to share. :-)

http://blog.iblamethepatriarchy.com/2007/04/02/footnote-to-blaming-greatness-the-what-about-the-men-section/#comment-49371

PS-I'm not sure agree with exactly *all* of it, but it's a good 98%, so close enough.

dairon920 @ 2007-04-13T23:17:00

2007-04-14T04:22:49Z

My new vacuum is a tiny god of wind. A veritable force of nature unleashed upon hideous, cheap grey carpet that, despite being only a few months old, has managed to look worn and shitty already.

Despite this, I am irrationally happy about this new gadget. A vacuum that works. Wow! (strike me down now, powers that be, I'm becoming domestic in my old age.) :-P

For what it's worth, the other major purchase I make on this paycheck is more calligraphy materials. The machine has not sucked all appreciation of/desire to create beauty from me yet! *bwahaha*

Completely hilarious:

2007-04-11T03:44:33Z

http://www.shamusyoung.com/twentysidedtale/?cat=14

dairon920 @ 2007-04-02T18:48:00

2007-04-02T23:51:44Z

Guess what I got in the mail today?

Insurance cards!!!

Know what that means for my near future? ~DENTIST APPOINTMENT!!!~

WOOT!!!!!

A couple of days late for International Women's Day...

2007-03-10T06:09:07Z

What better way to celebrate any day than with poetry? Enjoy.

http://www.ericajong.com/poems/alcestis.htm

dairon920 @ 2007-03-06T23:38:00

2007-03-07T05:44:53Z

I am working on something again. Finally. I'm not sure how it's going to work out in the long run, but damn does it feel good to have words coming again, even slowly.

Now, to wait for the blast. (Every time I have begun to be productive with this piece again in the last few months, I have been shot down by other life circumstances almost immediately.) So, okay, powers that be...look, I'm doing something! You going to look for a long-lost great aunt to kill off or a long blacked-out memory of being trapped in a pit of cockroaches as an infant to trip on me? Oh well, I don't care, if I keep plugging I have to finish eventually. And I really, really *like* this piece. So, it will work out.

Life is beautiful, frequently to spite itself. Shanti.